Ever tried something that you thought you couldn't handle? It's a strange string of feelings. The reluctancy when you pick up on the thought, the fear when you start on it, the excitement and anxiety as the whole thing escalates... Then things slow down for a moment and you realized, "Holy , I can't believe I'm doing this!" Sometimes it goes back to the excitement when things repeat by themselves, but it'll eventually lead to the end. Ironically, that will be the start of a long chain of emotions and ideas, most of them centralized on whether you liked doing it or not.
... Come on, Vyt! A hill of text just for reading a bloody manga?
Oh yes